Lately I keep thinking and realizing the subtle shift that I keep doing between being God centered and not. My main focuses are God and art, and I keep falling into a state of consciousness where I’m in lack, and I desire, and then I crave progression in the artistic endeavor in order to increase my status or power or something. Then I get disconnected from God and the creative energy is gone. Then I suffer and turn towards God, then feel totally whole and complete and blissful unconditionally and realize I don’t need anything, then more creative energy flows in and progress happens, then I realize how attainable my life’s biggest dreams are, but then desire and lack and craving for power arises again, ego arises, and then suffering, and then God, and the cycle continues.It’s like what the Bhagavad Gita says… We must act without care for outcome. We must create from a state of play and not care about the results
