12:03
Last night was rough. Bad swelling in abdomen and pain in side. The reoccuring thought over and over was to just go all in with Dispenza. Tune into that feeling of infinite abundance. I’m too tangled up in the external world of stimuli currently. I need to get back to a more inward orientation.
This morning I did SKriya. I will now do the morning Joe D meditation, then soon I will do BOTEC. Something I should try is doing the 45min Dispenza, then do 45min of something else, alternating.
18:09 – struggling to catch myself. Need to rebuild vitality and then dont lose the momentum this time. Pain in side sucks. Need to tune into bliss, reduce the restlessness, and then totally immerse myself in the work. It started working then I stopped. I reallllly wanna stop that cycle. I really wanna just go all in and keep building the fire higher and higher. There’s too much life to be lived to stay sick any longer