11:50
Last night was rough. I just kept thinking ‘Man I gotta go all in with meditation. What am I doing? My heart has to be fully in it, and it has to stay in it’.
I keep getting distracted by stuff. As soon as the energy builds I should be reinvesting it into the process, but instead I spend it on other stuff because I’m so eager to get back to life and build the life I want, but I need to have faith that the life I want will come into being quicker and more effortlessly if I create it in the quantum, and my health will be fixed as a result.
12:45
Wowwww I just did an SKriya and stayed in blissful presence at the end for so long. Feeling of rootedness in my spine. Visions of nice days in Netherlands. Insight into how keeping constant awareness of God or source keeps one free from attachments and keeps one perpetually peaceful and content. Feel great.
21:59
Didnt get to nap and was tired after walk, then had to cook for ages, eat, and then socialise, so feeling fried and got stuck in anxious eating which hasnt happened for a long time.
I will make sure to tune into bliss now if possible and be careful tomorrow