I woke tired but I got up and did my meditations. I then worked out which felt really good. I went for a walk. Napped. Then went out for dinner with unc, cousin, niece, and mom. Had pizza at boxed. Was very tasty.
There was a general lack of anxiety and overthinking today. I think carbs make my thoughts slow down. Not sure if that’s good or not.
I feel cloudy. Eating optimally is confusing. I don’t want to mirror the eating habits of anyone in my external reality. It’s frustrating how mirror neurons work… monkey see monkey do. You can override it but it takes constant work.
I need to eat like a yogi. Everyone around me externally is suffering in one way or another. Compulsive creatures… I wish I could just leave but I obviously came here for a reason. I’ll just keep trying to overcome the compulsiveness within myself and attain some form of sanity and hopefully can become useful… I would like to help.