man. Attachments are the issue.
Getting tangled up in what doesn’t matter.
losing sight of the narrow path
its so easy to let happen. So many things request we give them our time and attention. So many things sell themselves to us. We desire them and then we sell them to ourselves. The reality of the situation is that we have a very limited amount of time and energy. Our brain can handle only so many things at once. We must be absolutely ruthless with rejections. We must rejection everything other than that which is most pressing until that which is most pressing is completed.
this is my main obstacle
The runway is clear for me to heal and help the people i love do the same… But I keep getting sidetracked.
It’s not a video game where you can ignore the main quest and do side quests and then the main quest will just wait for you
time keeps moving
I’m afraid of the realness of the main quest so I keep trying to hide in side quests.
I’m running out of time and can’t keep making this mistake anymore. I have made great progress this year so far but I must keep going.
Do lots and lots of meditation. Keep going through the process of change. Stop thinking about anything else. You have only so much time in the day and it confuses the brain to keep giving it these other tasks to be working on it the background. The pressing one is massive and enough for your brain to be chewing on…
All the fun little things will be waiting after. They will. And you will be so much happier and healthier after, so you’ll be able to enjoy them more anyways.
stop trying to plan from the old self. Keep doing through the process of renewal and rebirth. You have to have completed the process yourself in order to be able to hold the space for others to do the same.
this is your dharma. It’s essential you take it seriously and follow it through.
you don’t know how limited your time is. You don’t know how limited your loved one’s time is. You are needed.
remember that awful dream that repeated as a child? Where it was all black and trippy and you were overcome with this immense feeling of regret and horror because you were given some major responsibility and then you fucked it up and the consequences were huge. Everyone was devastated.
what if that was a warning. Stop ignoring your intuition. Keep talking to God and keep following the advice.
earlier I felt awful and I fell asleep at 1pm mentally repeating
I KNOW NOTHING
I WANT TO SERVE YOU
I did this for maybe half an hour and I watched my attachments – my desires – all fall away and then the only thing that mattered remained – my health and well-being and the health and well-being of others.
all else is bullshit. Rubbish. I keep getting distracted by rubbish. This project I could start, this hobby I could get into, this camera I could buy. This book I could read. Etc. etc. etc.
I know what matters and I know what I should be doing and I need to be absolutely diligent about staying on track with it.
I need to go all in with Dispenza’s material. I need to complete that process. Totally integrate the theory. Then teach it and hold the space for others.
Escape the 3D and be a bridge.
avalon exists and it’s here now. It’s always here now. Learn to stay connected to it and then be a bridge. This is your dharma whether you like it or not. You will like it when it’s happening. Stop resisting it. All other paths will bring you misery. This path will bring you freedom and peace.
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When you collect things you can miss life. It’s like your attempting to capture it and store it away for later. Trying to make moments immortal, but all is fleeting. We should spend all our time being fully with what we are experiencing. Attachments to objects is connected to this. We have to let go of what doesn’t matter to make room for what matters because we only have so much space. There are so many types of clutter. People try capture a concert they’re at to appreciate and enjoy later. This is a weird state of mind where you’re always planning on enjoying life fully life. Planning to fully enjoy it and appreciate it later. Life is what is happening right now.
I want to get rid of so much stuff I possess. We die and leave with nothing physical. Everything experienced through consciousness is recorded. The cameras are all already rolling 24 7. What matters for us to do is to make sure we put on a show for them. Make sure we are fully awake. Fully alive. Living completelt. Living freely. Live as if you won’t be alive for very long because you won’t.
What matters is a small thing. What doesn’t matter is so many things. The path is narrow. The distractions are infinite.
Ask yourself throughout the day if you are still on the narrow path right now, or are you dreaming, are you pissing away time and energy by paying attention to that which isn’t most pressing right now.