11:37
wooooooowwwwwww
i woke up at 10 am and felt dehydrated and meh and felt annoyed for over eating at dinner yesterday because I could see how that led to too much energy at night, overstimulating myself, and falling asleep a lil frazzled
but then I quickly had a cold shower and did s kriya which was really nice. During it I felt attachments and restlessness and doubt fall away. I was in that state where I.was connected to presence and my heart started opening and I felt focused on what matters
then I did the Joe Dispenza morning meditation and the breath really opened my spine and kundalini flowed. Then I felt my future. I seen myself totally healthy with a fit physique and I seen myself full of vitality and passion being a servant of love by enthusiastically sharing the theory of meditation and getting people into the practice. I seen my families lives improve and I seen myself reaching out to wider circles. I always seen myself really happy and creatively fulfilled.
I just gotta keep disconnecting from the 3d and tuning into the quantum and seeing that potential future and feeling myway into it. Giving my brain the coordinates!
20:01
Today has been fucking wild. Damn full moons. Feel like I was full on tripping throughout the day. The clarity is.. wow. Bit much.
I can see everything so clearly. I can’t believe reality is about to unfold the way I think it is. I just need to keep surrendering.
I think its gonna unfold in a way where I finish the process of healing with meditation and then start teaching it and helping. This will snowball fast because there is such a need and hunger for it. I can feel and hear and see the spirits helping me rise up because they want me to become a servant of God, of love, of goodness, like they are. They want me on the team. I am on the team. I am the one with boots on the ground. Taken a fleshsut so I can be amongst the chaos. They are my recon team. They will help from above, as they have been. It’s my job to overcome the ego, the bodymind, and to keep the reigns in my spirits hands so I can walk freely. Walk with free will. Create. Collapse the potential futures into the desired one. Have total faith. I must keep total faith. I can do this. I have an army of angels above me. Keep the heart open. Heal thyself. Then let it all unfold. You love too much for a life of selfish desires. Your heart demands to view them all as part of the family. Totally inclusive consciousness. I would have never been content with just a nuclear family. I want the maximum possible reach. I am a mother to the world. I am a mother to the world. I am a mother to the world. I am a mother to the world. I am a father to the world. I will help. I will love. They are all mine. Everything is my responsibility, because I am servant of God, of Love.
21:41
The episode of survivor tonight (season 45) was filmed during a full moon, and tonight is a full moon. As I predicted before we hit play, it was a bit batshit. Emotions running high. Funny enough Jake seen the full moon and said “full moon in the sky. Things getting weird’