Woke okish. Felt awful as day went on. Knee is fucked. Emotions are all over the place. Miss the ex like crazy, probs cause valentines day. Frustration at my health issue. Frustration I still hvaent gone ‘all in’ with meditation
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I need to start fasting. I need to become more intentional with my eating. I need to cut out cookies. I wanna make more progress towards being vegetarian. I will fast tomorrow and contemplate how I want to spend lent. I definitely want more intentionality and self-control around my food consumption. My mind keeps going back to that mushroom trip way back in 2019 where I hadnt eaten all day and felt amazing, and at the end of the mushie trip I felt certain that having nothing in my stomach was contributing to my feeling of connection to divinity, but A.M and C.T insisted on getting food. I ate with them and instantly felt my energy go down.
Maybe for lent I’ll follow Jesus and fast for 40 days. Probably not but I’m probably just about crazy enough to attempt it.
I will research fasting tomorrow and figure out a plan to become more intentional regarding food.
Bryan Johnson realised he couldnt not eat the wrong things in the evening, and found that eating his daily required food in the morning and then fasting for the rest of the day optimal for him. I should try that. I do find it easier to be intentional in the morning.
I’m going to meditate now and then read in bed.
A stranger said my video motivated them (the day 1 – going all in with meditation video)