11:31
When I woke up I felt pretty decent. Instead of going straight into meditations I played guitar. Practiced politics and violence. Sung along with covers of reborn and mr rager by Kid Cudi, ghost town by kanye, Gajendra by willow. I really want to learn these songs on guitar. Did some pushups. Realised I was on autopilot and acting compulsively. Caught myself. Sat down and did Skriya and then did Joe D’s morning meditation right after, both in front of the 10k lux SAD therapy light, which I think actually works. I realised the importance of emotionally embracing the new future. Feeling the emotions of love, peace, freedom, and gratitude. Tuning into the energy if your desired future timeline. I did it quite well in the morning meditation. I hope to do both BOTEC & Tuning in today, as well as the Joe Dispenza course.
I think I will eat now, then call susi, then do the Dispenza course. a
23:31
Wow. Trippy night, Insights about effort vs relaxation. Striving v surrender. This is the key. I will meditate now and sleep. In the morning I will try do all the meditations first in the morning.