L and Is anniversary.
really not moving on so well. I gotta focus lots on building a new future and a new self. The Joe dispenza work. I won’t hurt if I’m living in a new timeline as a new self. I’m still L’s boyfriend in my head. I need to let go of that life. It would be easier if I didn’t secretly believe we were meant to be together and will inevitably end up back together. I can’t shake that thought. That synchronicity with the second Cyril Scott Initiate book didnt help.
This is another reason learning lucid dreaming and astral projection would help.
i must do that asap. Stop getting distracted. Do twim and read the AP books.
Dispenza matters more actually. Heal body. Twim facilitates successful Dispenza meditations. Both will heal the body and reduce tension allowing for better dreaming and projection. Art will flow more naturally then. Twim is the foundation. Twim ceases mind wandering and keeps the energy from being siphoned out of the body. Keeps the energy feeding into itself. Do twim. You’ll become a more dependable and capable version of yourself. Then do Dispenza to visualise and manifest a fresh future, and balance the bodies chemistry.