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6..41 am

I woke around 5am. Super dehydrated from binge eating before sleeping.

i felt a strong wave of frustration with modernity and its food situation.

its not a minor thing… Processed foods are linked to adhd, autism, anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, skitzophrenia, obesity obviously, autoimmune diseases, cardiovascular diseases. The gut is connected to everything. The mental and physical health of the modern world is collapsing and it is caused by the shit we eat. It’s so normalized to eat this stuff daily.

i want to reread all those books that convincingly make the claim that food is behind all the mental and physical issues mentioned above

i want to research is Alzheimer’s and dementia are linked because I get they are.

i want a healthier relationship to food

I want to love my body and treat it well so it’s functional and can get me to where I wanna go

i really want to wake up early again. Like 5am. But fully rested. The mind just works better at those hours. It’s so sad to be missed that constantly. Follow your intuition, to the behaviours of the people around you who are just constantly tired, stressed, and dissatisfied. Why do people want to push their way of life on others so much? Despite the fact it isn’t working for them. Maybe cause people identify who they are with their habits and vices, and everyone longs for their self to not die, so spreading their habits or patterns feels like a way to spread themselves. Idk. It’s fucking weird. People are so attached to their dysfunction

20:09

I ate more mindfully today. Ate enough for the day by 1pm, then had just a light snack at 6pm. Will hopefully sleep better tonight. I hope to wake up early again. Waking up early feels so much better. Even when tired. I need to stay focused and alert. I really want to be helpful to others who are suffering and I simply can’t while I’m suffering.

I will make sure to tune into bliss tonight