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things are strange… Hrmm….
What is sanity? What the fuck man. Stay alive. stay focused. I need to go all in with meditation because I want to heal my body and that is a majorl imitation so completing joe dispenzas work is essential and I think making certain habits absolutely non negoitable like a good bed time and morning routine will serve me majorly, and I think meditation is golden, but I also need to be let play. I really want to spend more time playing guitar going forward, and writing songs, I want to apply the whole detachment thing to songwriting so i can fianlly get over the writing block and just pump out songs so i learn the fundamentals like arrangement and so forth.
i wanna be free. i wanna play. i wanna be alive. to heal with dispsenzas work i need to let myself habve the life I want. Then I will want to do the work because the work will be about getting to that desired future. I need to accept im young and not ready to be totally selfless. I cant make myself go through with the process in order to help others alone. It is a major driver. I really want to help. I love my family and friends and humanity in general… but I also really really love music. and love enjoying the moment. I lvoe creativity. I nee dto include that in the vision so i keep moving toward it, I can be of service and have fun
that girl dayvuh has been mia for a while. didnt realise how big of a help her energy was. love is a cool thing. it is electric and contagious