21:10
health no bueno. I miss being structured and disciplined and doing the daily meditations. Things we’re going well. It is so easy to let things slide. it is funny how abandoning discipline and structure feels like freedom at first. Restarting the discipline feels like the opposite of freedom. The days go so quick without them. I miss having structure. I will reclaim structure.
I desire health. I desire freedom. I want to be fruitful. I want to be abundant. I want to be creatively prolific. I want to be helpful to other people. I want to be of service . I want to create cool stuff
I need to go all in with DIspenza’s meditations so that my health improves so I can create art regularly and be of help to people stuck in cyclical consciousness. I will meditate not until sleep and i will feel myself detaching. I will lose all attachments to form. I will be free, spacious like the sky, connected to the void. I will receive inspiration and energy and hope and clarity. I will know the path forward.
This is how this evening will unfold. I will then get a deep sleep, and have a good day tomorrow. Fingers crossed, God willing, I will be healthy enough to attend the faraway shapes concerts. Would really hurt to miss that.