22:45
Woke at 4.30am. Had a really good meditation and journal session. Slept from 10am till 1pm. Felt good. Had a decent day, though my body is in pain. The side hurts again quite a bit, and my gums hurt. I’m worried i sorta reversed a bit of the healing by being a dumbass. I will lock in again. I really want that desired future. I will be disciplined and follow the regime religiously. I really dont like being scattered. Things matter a lot right now. It is imperative that I be totally sober and take life seriously. How I live over the next four weeks decides which country I’ll be in come september. Need to figure this shit out. Need to be the captain of my life again. I read some book reviews in Notion from the old days. It made me realise my head was sharper then. I need to get back into that early rising and reading kinda thing. Remove all brainrot and get mental and physical gains. Keep surrendering and keep following the intuition. I will meditate now, then read and sleep. Hopefully I drift off soon and then get to wake up early again.