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My ass has hurt all day. No homo. Squats yesterday. Went gym for the first time in years. Did 4 sets of squats, 40kg, dumb idea. I went to failure with bench press too but my chest doesnt hurt half as bad as glutes. Barbell rows didnt totally mess me up either. I’ll know to be more careful with squats next time. Need to work back up to it. Slept from like 2 till 5 last night. Was then awake. Not ideal for recovery. Did then nap from 10am till 1pm though. I really enjoyed seeing IJ last night. Went on a walk with JW this evening, love that dude. Hoping to see him friday again before I leave. Great guy. I love that I’m getting my health back because it means I can share good adventures with people I care about. Life is cool. I hope I get better sleep tonight. Will watch something with SH and AH, probably from belfast to heaven, then will meditate, journal, and read in bed till sleep.
Tomorrow I will ring the oxygen therapy people. I will also research universities. I need that decided. It is very scary. I need to decide asap because I’m running out of time to apply for UCC. I have no idea what to do. I feel like being in college is just procrastination, but people keep saying a degree is inherently valuable. I dont know. I just feel like there is a solution to major issues that are growing in the world, and that the most sane thing to do is to get equipped to get that solution to people in need. Finances will flow once I am of service to people. College feels like dicking around. I get the socialisation is really beneficial and good for you. I dont think there is value in the degree, not for me at least. I feel like I’m such a specific kind of person that I can’t really rely on these prepaved paths and I need to get my act together and be captain of my ship and create. I need to manifest. I can be of genuine use to people. Money comes when you are of use to people. Problem solved.
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