15:58
that’s all I need to feel really buzzed from caffiene! Crazy how sensitive my system has become.
Last night i did quite a bit of meditation. Did skriya and then just continued for ages. Intermittently read the Astavarka gita. Had really powerful insights into the nature of God / Self. How everything is self. All else is illusion. There is only one thing. There is only one of us. The summary/thesis statemebt at the beginning of the course in miracles comes to mind.
“Nothing real can be threatened.
Nothing unreal exists.
Herein lies the peace of God.”
Then in the morning I read from that book again and had more insights. Felt myself as the sky. Totally free from all. Very freeing. Need to nap now.
23:50
SMOKED. Need to consume weed a little more! Shakes things up. Ego fears it because ego wants control and predictability. Too much structure and order removes humanity. Cannabis connects with our primal nature. Connects us with nature. With life. Less conceptual more sensual. Makes you feel, not just think. Makes you more human. Too much is a definite mistake, but so is too little.