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Things feel so different. Basically I have stopped doing the meditations and stuff for several days now and and have been listening to lots of music and playing guitar. That said, the pain is still there, but its cool i have the freedom to play this much
The sky has been blue. there was an amazing sunset. It made me feel awe. Cal released his album. That made me feel awe too. I feel quite alive and human. I desire health more than ever. from a healthy place. not because i want the pain gone, but because i just want to be free and want to have fun. i want to play.
this break from the rigid structure and meditations has been nice,but i need to finish the job so i can be totally healthy and free. I need to go all in with the work. falling asleep tonight i will try visualise what to do exactly. I need to start going all in, in the morning, before the day starts. In the way i used to, that used to initiate like a psychedelic trip.
Yes
I also need to just immerse myself totally in Joe Dispenzas stuff. his courses and meditations. Even if just for one week! Like if I just committed for the next 7 days to do tonnnes of the meditations. That would be doable. and it would increase the chances that I would be healthy enough on wednesday to drive in killarney with the teacher, and then also be healthy enough to go to Cal’s concert and actually enjoy it. Yes. Do the meditations. It is only 10 now.., could actually do a botec! Tomorrow, finsih the intensive and start the progressive.
in the morning write that thing and film it