tuesday

20.59

last day of March. Shitty month. Gotta restart disciplines. They were serving me well. Side swollen today. Tired and off

fuck this

i want to heal

beautiful part in chosen, s2 e4, guy can’t walk since childhood.waiting by pool. People not helping him move into water. Jesus said it’s not about the pool, not about people getting in your way, or not helping you. Do you want to heal? That’s the only question. The desire. The will. That must be there. I believe I can heal anything with enough dedication. When I walk in the right direction long enough my body heals. I must keep doing that. Keep surrendering. Keep surrendering.