19:30
I feel weird as fuck. Old symptoms here. Havent been here in ages. Went way overboard with the cookies, chocolate, honey, bread, bananas, cake. I gotta fast. Gotta cut out the carbs again. Having that awful autoimmune bullshit. F that. I was so much closer to healed not long ago. How did I end up back here? I felt so much more sane and mature and adult and calm. I’ve fallen into stress, desire, compulsiveness. Listening to way too much music. On the phone a lot. Just constantly overstimulating myself. Not going to allow this to continue. Dreams die in this state. I want to be master of my body-mind again.