im confused. Its so beautiful here. Everyone seems happy and healthy. Its just a totally different vibe. Why can’t life be more like this in Ireland? Why is the vibe always so off there. The constant dreariness. Everyone struggling and striving to enjoy life. This constantly feeling of there being something missing. The sun. Sun is fucking missing. Barely alive cause there’s no fucking light. I’m so sick of it. It’s awful. Misery. I dislike the options of lifestyles in that country. But how do I get out? And is it ethical to leave, instead of staying and trying to make it better, for family, and people in general. Is there a way? Yeah surely. Idk. If I were to leave I’d need to mend my health and have finances. I feel lost. I don’t know who I am or where I’m going. I need to reset.
